Today is a happy day :)

Live is a learning process..., yes, i did make mistakes before...
But, I'm determine to learn from it...
No more of that reckless decisions....

And this morning, when I open my eyes...
I say to myself,
I, not events,
have the power to make me happy or unhappy today.
I can choose which it shall be.
Yesterday is gone,
tomorrow hasn't arrive yet.
I have just one day today
and I am going to be happy in it...

someone told me, if you feel awesome, then you'll be awesome... :)

aujourd'hui, c'est jour heureux

bonjour.., longtemps sans voir~~~

Its been a while since I posted something.., i've been really busy lately..
with lecture, term paper, assignment and next month i'll be starting my practicum..
so my friends and I are busy looking for house to rent...
still, there are few good news, one of it, is the proposal of my term paper had been approved.
yey for me..., :) I'll be doing a research on 'the effectiveness of graphic novels in comprehension skills for reluctant readers'.... So, wish me luck k... hopefully it turn out as what I wish it will... :)

Last week, me and my gals manage to squeeze sometimes for outing, its just we cant take it anymore -to just stayed in campus with loads of works, we just need to get out from that unhealthy environment for a while,...

fatin & me on our so-called "échapper a" , but..., what wrong with my right arm..,??? hohoho..
such a mystery......????

Lately, when i had extra time..., i used it watch gossip girls.., (ya, i know..., what an irony, I got lots of work to do, but still.., I manage to watch drama) well, i cant function without some entertainment to keep me going..., now im done up till ep8 seasons4.,
I know right, I'm advanced.., well.., to much gg, making my mind fill with complications.., seems like its hard to believe in others, when someone makes excuses on something, I somehow felt they are lying.., lol..., how come la.., this is bad, I should stop.., plus its making me want to shop all the time..., look at their dresses and accessories..., and esp shoes.., no girls can resist shoes..., I loooooooooovvvveeeeeee shoes..,
oh ya, and now, my fav couple is chuck and blair.., they are just perfect for each other.., they are so messed up but they do complete each other somehow..

Mes belles chaussures

My shoes in campus, for classes..., this is not the update version, got few more new pairs of shoes.., and this is not enough, i need more :)

Resignation

to tell the true.., i hate breaking other people's heart...., but when it come down to feelings...
it cant be force...,
it need to come naturally...,
besides,
a good guy.....
will never push you....
will never make a decision for you.....
will never ask you to ONLY listen to him and dismiss your piece of mind...
will never raise his voice to you...
will never hang up on you...
and most importantly a good guy will always respect your decision...
even it meant that he will just look at you from the distance...

On my part...,
it's always a NO, ever since the first time you ask me about it...

今も_ ima mo_even now

友達だなんて一度も思った事はなかった
あなたに出逢ったその日から
変わってしまったのもあるけど
変わらない事の方が
あなたもあたしも多いよ
暑い帰り道に見えなくなるまで
本当に小さくなるまで見ていた
あなたが好きだったの
今も今も...

Tomodachi da nante ichido mo omotta koto wa nakatta
Anata ni deatta sono hi kara
Kawatte shimatta no mo aru kedo
Kawara nai koto no hou ga
Anata mo atashi mo ooi yo
Atsui kaerimichi ni mie naku naru made
Hontou ni chiisaku naru made mite ita
Anata ga suki datta no
Ima mo ima mo...

me falta en casa~~

I miss my home sweet home and the people that lived in it...., huhuhu..., mi familia...

I miss my mummy, sisters, abah & ummie and my sweethearts...

especially this time around, when I need to struggle and work hard for my term paper...

i indeed miss everything....
i miss the comfort of home...
i miss the warm hugs that i always share with my sister...
i miss the delicious cook of my mum...
i miss eating outside with ummie...
i miss having a deep talk with abah..
i miss being lazy at my room...
i miss having a day out with hometown friends..
and what i miss the most is the laughter of my nieces and nephews....
and the noises that they make outside of my room when the sun just begin to rise....

sweetheart #1-baby izzah

caught in act : making a mess...

Adorable izzah wearing her big sister's hijab :)

sweetheart #2-pumpkin ilmy

happy face: taking pic with the hamper, but 1 of the hamper is not even hers.., hehe..
still shes happy :)

Eating out at Pizza Hut -bubbly kak yong with her ibu :)

sweetheart #3- cunning abang adik

make people around him melt with his smile

wink ><

sweetheart #4- lovely abang long

kitten afiq- suit his characteristic well.., hohoho

wink ><

my sunshine..., brighten my days always~~~ :)

gosh, i miss them.., like A LOT......

anyoung haseyo~~

assalamualaikum and anyoung.., its been a while since im posting., been busy.. and I just coming back from holiday for my short semester and the wireless in my new hostel room is not helping at all...

Im stressed out now.., my external disc was broken.., all my dramas and movies that is almost 300gb is inside that..., its all gone.. like..., poooofssss... GONE..... :( my hard work in downloading most of the japanease and korean drama is totally down the drain now... im upset....

plus and im busy now.., doing my term paper, its like a thesis la.., im totally behind schedule...

erm.., ok la.., gtg now...

i'll update again soon.., hopefully.....

faith.hope.love

Faith makes life possible.

Hope makes life workable.

Love makes life beautiful.

I wish for a lot of things. But the most common of my wishes, is to be stronger than I am the day before.

Its hurt~~

I like this song..., its soulful..., and kind of match my mood after the whole accident thingy...


This is the MV, gotta acknowledge the gothic theme..., its awesome and thumps up to Dara for her outstanding acting in this...




and this one is merely a picture but with romaji lyrics and english translations...,



Romanization

[CL] Naega jun shinbaleul shingo geunyeowa gileul geotgo
Amureochi ankae geunyeowa kisshago
Naega jun hyangsu ppurigo geunyeoreul poomae ango
Nawa haetdeon geu yaksok ddo dashi hagaetjyo

[Minzy] Oorin imi neujeotnabwayo
Oori sarang kkeutnan geongayo
Amu malirado jom naegae haejweoyo
Oori jungmal sranghaetjana
Dwaedollilsoon eopneun geongayo
[Dara] Oneul bam namani apayo

[Bom] Byeonhaetni ni mamsokae
Eejae nan deo eesang eopneun geoni
Nan neol neol saenggak-hamyeon
Neomu apa apa apa

[Minzy] Amugeotdo aniran deut
Nae noonmul barabogo
Taeyeonhagae maleul ddo ee-eogago
[CL] Aniran mal mot-hagaetdago
Geu eoddeon miryeondo huhwaedo junhyeo eopdago
Janinhagae malhaetjyo

[Bom] Oorin imi neujeun geongayo
Oori sarang kkeutnan geongayo
Geojitmalirado jom anirago haejweoyo
Eejaen deo jalhal su itneundae
Dashi mannal suneun eopjiman
[Dara] Oneul bam namani apayo

[CL] Byeonhaetni ni mamsokae
Eejae nan deo eesang eopneun geoni
Nan neol neol saenggak-hamyeon
Neomu apa apa apa

[Minzy] Deo eesang yejeonae neega aniya
[CL] Naega saranghan neowa jigeunae niga neomudo dallasseo
[Dara] Geojeo munghani
Meoleojineun neol barabogoman seo seo ooleosseo
[Bom] No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

[Dara] Byunhaeya haetni? Doraol soon eopni?
Kkok bunhaeya haetni? Dorawajul soon eopni?
Byunhaeya haetni? Doraol soon eopni?
Wae byunhaeya hani? Gyesok saranghal soon eopni?

[Bom] Oh, kkeuchin geoni ni mamsokae
Eejae nan deo eesang eopneun geoni
Nan neol neol saenggak-hamyeon
[Minzy] Neomu apa apa apa

[Minzy] Apa apa
[CL] Apa apa

Translation

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we're already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can't turn back?

[Dara] I'm the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn't deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so
I can do better now, though we can't meet again

[Dara] I'm the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You're no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can't you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can't you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts

upset but accepting the qada' and qadar

I've met with an accident last friday.., I was the one whos driving the car that night, and my 2 nephews sitting at the passenger sit.., it was around 9ish pm.. after the accident the car was in quit bad condition.., but im fine.., and also my nephews.., they were ok.., but the guy with the motorcycle that crushed into our car was injured, i heard he had a broken leg.., I'm felt so sorry towards him... T T

Everyone please pray that everything will be fine..., please do..,

TQ

:(

end of semester six

Just few days ago.., my 6th semester of a total of 7th semester in uni just end (another 1 semester is for practicum),
sometimes.., me..., myself is in the state of not quit believing this fact, time did fly so fast...

at the very last day of this semester, after we are done with our final exam.., we attended a seminar on preparation of our practicum...

check out the picture,

Madam K, getting ready to give her speech..

sempat lagi..., amik gambar in between speech slot :)

lunch with the "clicks" in PP

Eating 'nasi lemak ayam' yang taste so -so..., erm.., ok la...

But overall, everything went smoothly.., 2 days more to go then im at home sweet home.., happy :)

me, heaven and my sister :)

Today is so refreshing..., wake up late, just be lazy and ate my lunch with my clicks..,and after this just want to lay down while watching sungkyunkwan scandal.., this is heaven... :)

Yesterday was my last paper, so now basically its just a complete rest for me, still have to stay here until 27th of oct because of the practicum seminar on the 26th..., actually the whole university is really quiet now since most of the students already went back home.., well, they are done with their exam too.., so just a few of us stayed back inside the campus now..

To night the plan is going out to withdraw money and maybe have dinner there with babe, nanak and vg.... :) erm.., cant wait...

owh ya before I forget, last wednesday on the 2oth was my sis ninie birthday..., I did called her.., and wished her happy birthday..., it was during the midst of my exam week so I just talked to her for a few minutes.., around 10 minutes i guess.., and she did asked me bout jyj showcase.., how was it.., I said its was fun.., they (jyj) are too adorable... she was loling while listening to me..., hehehe.., she knows me to well to the point she said to me..., "I bet you cant focus on your revision since you only had your mind occupied thinking about them..." and I replied back "BINGO". Then both of us laughed like mad. I love my ninie SO MUCH.., she is really a kind hearted person, full of wisdom and generosity.., this sister of mine is really really generous... She even asked me if i still got money, I was like.., yes.., yes.., I have.., dont worry bout it.., :) I am a good lil sister okey.., I dont really take advantage of my dear ninie generosity.., lol...

Back to the birthday sister of mine..., my dearest ninie..., she is indeed very nice, full of patience and actually among the four of us she is the most quiet one, she dont really talk much, most of the time she will only smile..., but if its among our siblings.., she did talked alot.., but she seldom shows this side of her to others.. Among the 4 of us, my ninie is the most petite one, all 3 of us can be consider tall and big ( well.., not too big..., not like huge ok..., just fine... ehehe) and she is small and a bit shorter than me.., she is the only one that take my mother's genetic in terms of height and weight..., and she did looked like my mother, just like the younger version of my mom... When I called her.., I did told her I love her..., and I wished she get married soon.., :) she just laughed.., maybe thats a good sign..., I guess she had someone now.., ehehe.., she is my only big sister that havent got married yet, and anyone who get my ninie will be sooooo lucky.., she is the full package of inner and outside beauty.., what more do you want when you got this pretty lady with such a fair skin (the fairest among us, dont judge my sis my looking at me.., im the most tanner in my siblings.., lol.., pity me) and at the same time she is really kind, full of patience and wisdom... wow...., seems like im doing an advertisement... lol.., I bet if she read this she got mad at me... ehehe...,

To my dearest sister,... ninie.., happy belated birthday ya..,do know that I love you so much... thank you for always be such a good sister, giving me advised and broaden my perspective of life....

cuppy cake as birthday cake.., cant get any cuter than this ^^

cant wait to go back and spend more time with you, helping you in the shop and just talking and gossiping while waiting for customers... :)

I dont know how my life would be without all my precious sisters.., just cant image..., now that im big enough and more matured and wise in terms of life, only now I realize how blessed I am to have 3 wonderful big sister.... it feels awesome when you know someone got your back not just in good times but also in bad times..., no matter how bad things maybe...

i hate a pusher!!!

" Love won’t make you cry or ask why,
So I’ll deny my heart cause I won’t live a lie
Why try..... "

I can soar

I just love this song.., so inspirational, really make me so zealous after listening to it.., and junsu's voice...wow..., what more can i said about it.. At the same time, have to praise him for his english, its improving a lot i must say.., i bet he did put a lot of effort practicing... well to the point he got sick and hospitalized, he is a man with a lot of determination, all of them too.

This song totally melt me and reached to the core of my heart.. lol, over exaggerating much.. but, that was so true.., listen to it carefully and you will understand what I meant.

This song is really suitable for this phase of their life (JYJ).., with the whole lawsuit and evil sme never seems letting them go and kept on troubling them. Well, AKTF everyone.., hopefully everything will go smoothly and we be able to see the five of them perform together again, for now lets cheer for JYJ and their new worldwide album. :)

Composed by Kim, Junsu
Lyrics by Kyoko Hamler

When you said, I…
Owe you, it was sad
But I see how empty, you are at your core
So there’s no hard feelings
I know that I’m meant for so much more
I gave and did above
What I had to
So forward, no more to prove
I’m free to fly
And that is exactly what I’m gonna do
‘Cause I…

I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

I know, I can’t go back
To that dark place I’d want
Your love so damn bad
You took from me only,
Blindness, to what I’ve always had
I gave and did above
What I had to
So forward, no more to prove
I’m free to fly
And that is exactly what I’m gonna do
‘Cause I…

I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

‘Cause I…
I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

Listen, I know tomorrow
Holds the key to any sorrow
That’s why it’s all okay
Then, now and always
‘Cause I…

I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

‘Cause I…
I’m right here standing
That’s how I know I can withstand
Anything that may come,
A wind or a fall
I can soar

I can soar

so sweet ^^

This few days i've been in love head over heels to G.Na feat Rain's song - If u want a lover / if i have a lover.., the song was just awesomely cute..., wow..., just plainly cute..., did i just said cute..., i meant really really cute....

this is G.Na ft Rain version



and

this is a cover sang by Yoseob ft Gayoon..., its lovely :)



im in exam mode now..., so now every time im reading my note and book i'll be listening to this song~~~ ^^

roller coaster

sorry for not updating for quit sometimes.., ive been so lazy and at the same time busy..., really2 busy actually.., so many things to do.., infact next tuesday my final exam will start..., dont even have time to rest and having my happy time to just relax and watch movie and read novels... to be true they are so many things that happen to me lately..., its quit a roller coaster.., happy things as well as disturbing things... huhuhu...

but lets just talk about happy things..., ^^
the happy news is im going to jyj concert on 17th oct..., im just so ecstatic and happy.., finally this dream of mine will finally come true.... yay.. happy..........

other than im also happy because i already have my plane ticket to go back home after my final... hahaha... well, this is happy for me.., just knowing that i have the ticket to go back was exciting...

Ok la.., do not what else to write now..., maybe tomorrow i'll continue for now i have to do my revision.., my first paper start on 12 oct..,

daa everyone.... :)

Saeng-il Chuka Hamnida to my dearest dang ding dung~~

Today iz my dearest dang ding dung birthday..., she iz all sad because she had to celebrate her birthday all alone in UMS..., no tears baby...,we celebrate your birthday big time when we both meet in Sandakan ya..., so smile now..., no, i dont see any smile on your face yet...., ok.., theres a smile..., ^^

I think its been 8 years since both of us become bestfriend..., we are each other comfort during a rainy days in our life... to hv her as a bestfriend is a total bless and happiness... <3

Happy 22th birthday dear..., dont worry.., 22 iz still young..., ^^

fighting again

"Our ideals resemble the stars, which illuminate the night. No one will ever be able to touch them. But the men who, like the sailors on the ocean, take them for guides, will undoubtedly reach their goal" -Carl Schurz-

Going back to unisel tomorrow and following the star as my guidance to the place that I've been aiming for..., Gambate kudasai to myself.. :)

up and down

Assalamualaikum..., rasanya masih belum terlambat untuk mengucapkan selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri~~ sesungguhnya hari raya merupakan hari yang sangat mulia dan membawa seribu pengertian kepada seluruh umat islam. Aku pun begitu juga, aidilfitri merupakan hari yang ditunggu-tunggu dan memberikan seribu kebahagian buat diri ini. Happy dapat bersama-sama meraikannya dgn family dan kawan-kawan yg tersayang.

Malangnya, semalam my whole family was shock by a very unfortunate news, my cousin brother met with an accident on his way from his in laws' house to his house here in Sandakan. the most heartbreaking news was when we learn that his wife got killed during the accident. Innalilllahiwainnalillah hirajiiun...., Sesungguhnya dari ALLAH kita datang dan kepada-NYA jua kita kembali. Tekejut sangat.., pada masa yang sama sangat simpati kepada abang sepupu,.. :( Sesunngguhnya, hal-hal seperti ini sebenarnya sangat menginsafkan. Terasa diri ini sangat kerdil kerana pada bila-bila masa sahaja kita mungkin akan dijemput menghadap yang Maha Esa. Semoga roh arwah di golongkan di dalam hamba-hambanya yang beriman... Amin..

Al - Fatihah buat arwah...

Life as me

Pagi tadi busy buat biskut raya with my sis..., sampai sakit belakang sebab duduk lama sangat.., adui~~ masih terasa -rasa lagi ni.., lepas tu petang pulak pegi bandar sebab ada appointment with doctor Wong. Wajib pegi sebab nak kena betulkan my braces. Erm.., da setahun pakai braces bila la gigi aku ni betul2 akan rata ala2 model iklan ubat gigi colgate yang dalam tv tu.., hihihi...

So, in a nut shell.., its been a hectic day today..., and some more I have to think about my assignment that need to be submit after raya holidays... Owh, so many things need to be complete before going back to Unisel again. Well, theres nothing I can do, this is me.., and my life as a student.

Ok la.., im tired.. Need some rest now.. Daa everyone.. Sweet dream... Sleep tight... Don't let the bed bugs bite =)

home sweet home

Finally im home.., and being home during ramadhan is a total bless and bliss~~ Spending time with family and being able to perform tarawih together is indeed sweet and fulfilling, its just this feeling in your heart.., peaceful and satisfying...., I LOVE this moment..., hopefully I can experience this as long as possible, but ramadhan will end soon. However im still happy, because at the end of ramadhan theres Hari Raya. Its the day of celebration and victory :)

To sum up everything, i guess.., not guess, but, i believe and in fact.., im just really thankful and happy that im finally home and are able to celebrate Raya together with my family... Thank you ALLAH for always answering my prayer even though i know that i always make mistake and indeed not a good servant. Sesungguhnya ALLAH maha penyayang lagi maha mengasihani.

Tanjou-bi Omedetou to my dearest Teddy Bear

Teddy Bear as Mr. Froggy =)

Hari ni birthday teddy bear kesayangan aku..., teddy bear ni memang kiut dan memang selesa kalau dipeluk. Teddy bear ni memang di sayangi semua sebab dia sweet dan pandai ambil hati orang di sekeliling especially hati maksu dia.., hehe..., Sekarang teddy bear da makin besar & has his own thinking. So teddy bear da makin degil & tak nak dengar cakap. Teddy bear pun da makin tak suka main dengan maksu dia cz for him, his friends are way cooler than his maksu.. Nonetheless, teddy bear is still cute & semakin tembam, tangan teddy bear pula sangat lembut.., lagi lembut dari tangan maksu nya.., :)

To my dearest teddy bear.., Mohd Afiq Aiman~~
Happy 8th birthday.Love you so much.., now and always~~

Hobi teddy bear = makan

Posing as himself = Teddy Bear

HY - 366 nichi

I've been listening to this song for days now. It's a theme song for a Japanese drama, Akai Ito. Actually i haven't watch the drama yet, but i bumped into this song when I opened a Japanese fan site.
Its an awesome song.., its really sad, but before anyone make any assumption, I just wanted to make it clear that this song have nothing to do with me. It's just that i wanted to post them here sooo much, because i thought that the lyrics are lovely.



~~~

HY - 366 nichi

soredemo ii soredemo ii to omoeru koi datta
modorenai to shittete mo tsunagatte ita kute
hajimete konna kimochi ni natta
tama ni shika au koto dekinaku natte
kuchiyakusoku wa atarimae
soredemo ii kara

kanai mo shinai kono negai
anata ga mata watashi wo suki ni naru
sonna hakanai watashi no negai
kyou mo anata ni aitai

soredemo ii soredemo ii to omoeta koi datta
itsushika anata wa au koto sae kobande kite

hitori ni naru to kangaete shimau
ano toki watashi wasuretara yokatta no?
demo kono namida ga kotae deshou?
kokoro ni uso wa tsukenai

kowai kurai oboete iru no anata no nioi ya shigusa ya subete wo
okashii deshou? Sou itte waratte yo
wakarete iru noni anata no koto bakari

koi ga konnani kurushii nante koi ga konnani kanashii nante
omowa nakatta no honki de anata wo omotte shitta

kowai kurai oboete iru no anata no nioi ya shigusa ya subete wo
okashii deshou? Sou itte waratte yo
wakarete iru noni anata no koto bakari

anata wa watashi no naka no wasurerarenu hito subete sasageta hito
mou nido to modore nakute mo
ima wa tada anata anata no koto dake de
anata no koto bakari

HY - 366 days

i'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this
even though i knew you couldn't return, i want to be connected to you
it was the first time I felt this way
as time goes by we can still meet occasionally
because verbal promises were natural
i'm fine with it as well

this wish of mine which won't come true anyway
that you would fall in love with me again
such a transient wish of mine
today i want to meet you again

i'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this
before I knew, you even refused to meet me

when i'm alone i start thinking
at that time, should i had rather forgotten(about you)?
but these tears are the answer, aren`t they?
i can't lie to my heart

it's almost scary that i can remember your smell, your action and everything
“Weird, isn`t it?”, please say so and laugh
even though we're separated, it`s nothing but you

i never thought that love would be so painful, that love would be so sad
i realized that i was serious about you

it's almost scary that i can remember your smell, your action and everything
“weird, isn`t it?”, please say so and laugh
even though we're separated, it`s nothing but you

you are someone inside me that i can't forget about, someone who offered me everything
even if you can never return anymore
right now it's only you, just you
nothing but you

my cuppy cakes ^ ^

Hari ni hari ahad..., esok isnin..., lusa selasa.., tulat rabu..., pastu ari khamis balik hometown..., yay!! :) happy...

Harap- harap semua berjalan lancar...,

balik uma nanti nak wat cup cakes for raya... :)

turbulence

With confidence and vigorous assertion, he looked at me square in the eye.

"And then there's you," he said. " A girl with a family who fought the odds to make it work for you, with they perfect house and straight-laced jobs, truly livin' the life that everyone dream of. And you brought up as a spoiled girl."

I frowned. "What?"

"You heard me, you spoiled," he said firmly.

As I gulped down how offended I was, he straightened his back and got a hold on his emotions. He wanted to be as direct and forthright as possible.

There were about a dozen things I wanted to say back to him, but I stayed silent. I looked at him with a trembling shoulder as I tried to hold back my tears. I walked away from him. As I walked passed him, I told myself that this is the end of it.

i never

I never blamed you..., not once...
You came for me that's all that matters...,

Ramadhan..., A month of reaping blessings

Assalamualaikum WBT..., The Holy Muslim month of fasting -Ramadhan- is here again. This is a month of repentance and full of blessings. It is the ninth month on the Muslim calendar and it is believed that the Koran “was sent down” from heaven during this season.
Ramadhan is a time when a devoted Muslim is expected to concentrate on his/her faith and spend less time on the concerns of his everyday life. It is a time of worship and contemplation.

So lets all of us devote our self to ALLAH SWT..., lets start now..., and lets make this ramadhan a new point for us to change for the better..., Amin..,

Selamat berpuasa kepada semua muslimin dan muslimah..., semoga segala ibadah yang kita lakukan dibulan yang mulia ini akan diterima oleh yang Maha Esa...,

BRight atmosphere~~~

Today was happy day..., Alhamdullillah..., syukur pada ALLAH yang maha esa..., actually dua tiga hari yang lepas aku depressed sangat.., assignment belambak + lecturer yang demanding and personal life yang kelam kabut sedikit..., tapi alhamdullilah semuanya dapat aku tempuhi..., tq sangat buat ummie and mak yg tak henti-henti doakan kesajahteraan aku yang jauh dari family...,
syukur sangat sebab ada family yg sayang and memahami aku..., :)

Aku akan selalu berdoa and berdoa..., semoga semuanya akan berjalan dengan lancar.., At the same time berdoa buat mak, ummie, abah and the whole family...,
i just cant imagine my life without them.., Thank you ALLAH for giving me this much happiness and love.., <3

silence

i never told you
what i should have said
no i never told you
i just held it in
and now i miss everything about you
i cant believe that i still want you
after all the things we've been through
i miss everything about you.....

SHIVER

Today we have presentation of language based activities for teaching of literature.., its like we have to design an activities that we will conduct in classroom when we teach literature in school later on..., to be true.., i think that it will turn out to be an easy assignment and presentation.., but..., erm.., its not like what i thought before.., its actually more than that and our lecturer is ...., shall i say quit demanding..., yup.., kind of..., we explain to her and the whole class and later she asked question to us.., and we tried our very best to answer.., and from the answer that we gave her, she will later on ask another question.., its like never ending Q&A session.., its kind of kill my mood for the whole day..., and also towards the subject..., which is a big shamed since i always like literature coz i always love to read novel especially YA (young adult) novels. I know this might be shoking to some people.., the fact that i LOVE to read..., but its really true..., :)if i went to bookstore i can really stay there for hours without really realizing that hours had pass by...., that is how huge my love for reading..., i get all excited.., dont know which book to look first and later on i will have a hard time to choose which one that i should buy first..., but lately.., its a bit unfortunate coz i dont really have that much time to read.., but i tried as much as i can to squish reading YA lits to my daily schedule...,

Recently my most fav book is shiver by Maggie Stiefvater.., i dont know how to describe it.., its juz really wonderful. Perhaps the hardest thing I'll have to do today is find some way to describe the way I feel after reading Shiver. This book drew me in from the moment I laid eyes upon it. The book cover is breathtaking. Even when I opened the first page of the book I was still taken back by how simple and beautiful it was. Yet, I can not judge a book just by its cover. I am not sure I can even find the words to describe how much I loved this book.( Yah i know.., i mention it twice.., how i cannot find any word to describe the book..., indeed i really cant) Shiver gave me an amazing feeling throughout the whole entire book. From the first page to the last page. It put me in a trance, and I felt so much emotion from all the characters. I think the love between Sam and Grace is so beautiful and pure. It probably is one of the best young adult couples I've ever had the pleasure of reading about. I think everyone need to read this book.., and feel what i felt..., its just awesomeness.., cant wait for the second installment of the book.., linger..., which i believe will be release in Malaysia on september 2010...,

Other than linger by maggie stiefvater.., this is my wish-to-read books list:

1) kissed by an angel by Elizabeth Chandler
2)heartbreak river by Tracia Mills
3)Once was lost by Sara Zarr
4)The summer i turn pretty by Jenny Han
5)Crescendo by Becca Fitzpatrick

Actually i have my longer version of wish-to-read books.., but this is my target for at least the next couple of month.., hopefully i can manage 2 buy and read it all.., plus i still have about 7 e-books that i havent read..., so for now..., i feel content.., since i stiil have books to read.., its always a matter of finding a suitable time to read...

"A book is a garden, an orchard, a storehouse, a party,
a company by the way, a counselor, a multitude of counselors."
~ Henry Ward Beecher

today

clouds are heavy today...
clouds cry...
clouds cry...
clouds cry...
how i wish theres fire in the sky...,
and it will brighten up the horizon...~~

favourite flower for dearest friends

Kawan-kawan aku cakap lately aku ni baran sikit and mood pun asyik down.., erm ye kot.., sebab banyak benda yang jadi kebelakangan nie.., paling tak boleh tahan cara aku describe feeling aku ngan kawan-kawan..,

Friend (gg) * i call her gg: eh.., whats wrong with you ah?
Me: erm.., i dont know how to describe it but i feel like i just climb the highest mountain and later jump from it head first.., yah.., that how i felt..
Friend (gg) : wah.., that sound really serious.., (dengan expression yang berkerut-kerut)
Me: yah.., the impact was strong.. (sambil buat muka seposen)

hahaha.., kelakar jugak bila ingat balik.., tapi masa tu.., aku betul-betul rasa mcm yang aku describe dengan kawan aku tu.., tapi sekarang i felt much better and pagi tadi aku mulakan hari aku dengan penuh kesyukuran. Gembira masih dapat bernafas dan masih ada family dan kawan-kawan yang sayang aku. Aku rasa apa pun obstacle yang aku lalui dalam hidup.., akan dapat aku tempuhi dengan tenang dan tabah dengan adanya ALLAH yang maha esa, mak, ummie, abah, kakak and kawan-kawan.., baru -baru ni pun.., kawan-kawan kesayangan aku banyak membantu aku get thru the so called 'gloomy path of my life'.., tq banyak-banyak buat idang, dila, gg and atin..., :) LOVE you all...

oleh itu aku hadiahkan bunga kesukaan aku ni pada korang eh..,


Lilies :)

Aku tak pernah bisa

Seperti bintang-bintang
Hilang ditelan malam
Bagai harus melangkah
Tanpa kutahu arah
Lepaskan aku dari
Derita tak bertepi
Saat kau tak disini
Seperti dedaunan
Berjatuhan di taman
Bagaikan debur ombak
Mampu pecahkan karang
Lepaskan aku dari
Derita tak berakhir
Saat kau tak ada disini

Saat kau tak ada
Atau kau tak disini
Terpenjara sepi
Kunikmati sendiri
Tak terhitung waktu
Tuk melupakanmu
Aku tak pernah bisa
Aku tak pernah bisa

* Terima kasih kepada yang memperkenalkan lagu ini..., lagu ini da stuck kat kepala aku~~~
Ironinya lepas mendgr lagu ini..., tetiba rasa sedih la pulak.... huhuhu....


ok la.., gtg to finish up my assignment., daaaa....,

ASSIGNment time...,

Anyeong haseyo..,

today ive been busy with doing my assignment and house chores or may i say hostel chores? since im in hostel now..., i washed my clothes then cleaning my room and cooked for lunch..,
Then later, vg and kuna come to my house to discuss bout our assignment together with fatin..,
ahh.., theres so many things to do..,

to do list :
1) need analysis for teaching of esp
2) guide and control lesson plan for teaching of writing and later have to do presentation for it
3) analyze form 5 poem for teaching of literature
4) teaching of writing for whole year plan

this is what i can remember for now.., and for sure lot more to come during next week class..,
sigh...,

i still remember, last semester.., it was so hectic to the point i can only go back to my room to eat, pray and sleep.., other than that, all my time was spent at the class, group discussion or doing props for theatre class.. and at the same time doing project on Big Book for teaching of reading class.., Big Book is necessary in english class especially to teach primary student a reading skills. A good Big Book can be the basis of a brilliant lesson which allows all the children to enjoy the text, sentence and word level, just as the Literacy Framework requires.
However merely enlarging an existing book isn't always enough. I've seen several where the enlarged text is still too small to be read by those at the back of the group who, as a result, miss the point of the lesson, get bored and start to mess about. So, its always good for teacher to do her own Big Book, since she can alter it to her students need. Even though it required lots of time and energy to finish the Big Book but it worth the hard work when its already complete.

just done with colouring

The text already been put


Tired..., but still putting smiling faces for the pic :)
the chicken is to be put in the Big Book.., to add extra something to it.

Taking picture before our *micro teaching for Big Book

* micro teaching = to present sample "snapshots" of what/how you teach and to get some feedback from lecturer or colleagues about how it was received. It's a chance to try teaching strategies that the teacher may not use regularly. It's a good, safe time to experiment with something new and get feedback on technique.

i cant breathe without you.., but i have to breathe without you~~

assalamualaikum w.b.t...,

sedih.. sedih..., kesian blog aku ni.., terbiar sampai da bersawang and berkulat..., aku ni nampak sangat hangat2 taik ayam,.. dulu bukan main lagi beriya-iya nak ada blog, sekarang ni langsung tak terjaga sampai da berbulan aku tak update..., punya la malas... aish~~ napa la aku ni mcm ni skali..., tapi kali ni aku nekad nak btol2 and nak selalu update.., *ya la tu.., hahaha..., tak-tak..., kali nie btol2.., dengan semangat juang yang tinggi and berkobar2.., haha.., ketawa pulak..,
ketawa ketawa jugak.., tapi aku sebenarnya sedih.., tak tau la.., semenjak duamenjak ni bukan main malankolik lagi perasaan aku.., syahdu pun ada.., sedih pun ada..., kekadang rasa nak nanges pun ada.... hish hish.., napa la aku ni ikutkan perasaan sgt....

Lately ive been listening to breathe by taylor swift..., lagu ni sesuai sgt ngan kondisi aku sekarang..., yang melankolik dan still dalam fasa memulihkan perasaan aku yg kurang stabil ni..,

hurm.., jom la nyanyi ramai-ramai...,

Breathe lyrics
Songwriters: Caillat, Colbie; Swift, Taylor Alison;

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

exam week

its my exam week..., so i haven't been able to really post anything...,
fighting everyone...,!!!

Wish all of us the very best in our final...,

ok.., that it.., bye2.. END.

i change the layout...,

how is it..., i keep looking at my lappy screen.., admiring the layout of my blog.., huf.., syok sendiri nampak.., hehe..,

k.., gtg everyone.., ngantuk.., da pkul 4am da.., im so absorbed wif the whole blog thingy.., :)

testing...,testing.., 1-2-3..,

hello.., im happy.., :) finally my wish of having my own blog come true...,
act.., still in da process of trying rite now..., since this is my 1st post ill make it short and sweet..,
let start with welcoming everyone who visit my humble blog and reads my post..., WELCOME and TQ everyone.., i hope that through dis blog ill be able to express myself more and at the same time connect with my fellow friends who are ways head of me in technology.., me jz opening a blog rite now is kinda embarrassing.. huhu.. nvr mind.., ill tried to keep up k..., :)