Aku takut pada manusia yang menakutkan

Manusia.
Kita memang menakutkan.

Aku takut pada jiwa yang kosong.
Aku takut pada jiwa yang terasa dirinya penuh ilmu di dada,
tetapi merendah-rendahkan ilmu di dada orang lain.

Aku khuatir pada mereka yang begitu semangat menegakkan agama,
sehingga lupa pada tanggungjawab,
kepada orang-orang yang sayangkan mereka.

Aku risau mereka yang bijak memutar-belit,
berselindung di sebalik topeng sayangkan agama,

Aku risau mereka yang rajin memberi peringatan,
tetapi dalam hati tersembunyi rasa riak mahupun ujub,
hingga mendambakan pujian manusia,
hingga melupakan pemerhatian Tuhan Yang Di Atas.

Aku risau pada diri sendiri,
yang begitu mudah terpengaruh,
yang begitu mudah mengadili,
yang begitu mudah mengkritik,
yang begitu mudah memperkecil.

Sedangkan aku masih belajar.

Siapa aku?
Manusia biasa.
Terlalu gopoh-gapah,
Lalu tergelincir.

Ya Tuhan,
lindungi aku dari tipu daya manusia.
dari sifat jahat yang halus tersembunyi.
dari jiwa yang hanya mahu menindas.

Aku lemah, Aku tewas.

Aku takut.
Pada manusia yang begitu menakutkan.

credit to : Zulaikha Osman
@ http://dakwat.org/?p=777?ef6d5b98

I hate this feeling

I need to be strong and shake it off~~

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.

The hunger games was awesome., watched it for two times already. Flawless :)

I am dying to watch the hunger games.., ohh, help me.
Hopefully, tomorrow, as soon as I'm out from the college.

thank you ALLAH

Looking back onto the path that I've been walking along the way of my life, there are many things that I unfortunately had taken for granted. Many things had been handed to me without me had to work hard for it, but not even a little appreciation did I give to the person nor the things that I had got. However, that was years back when I was having a teenager crisis- most of the time not really sure who I am and what I want to be- a very typical teenage girl with raging and unstable hormones. But, nowdays, every small and little kindness from others bring smile to my face. Now that I am out into the real world and have to work for every penny that I earned, I learn to be grateful and to says Alhamdullillah for every small little things. So in this post I would like to write on my ' things to be grateful list'.

1.) I know that I am far away from my family, but for this I am also grateful. Being away from them make me miss them all the time, and I keep telling myself when I am home I will be good to them. Ahh. I am so grateful for my mamy. sisters, abah & ummie. There had done so many wonderful things for me, mamy is really understanding in so many ways. I am grateful for that too. Never did she push me into doing things that I don't like. She trusted me in a way that she knows for the fact that I will never do things that will make her upset. For that, I am content, and just the thought of her make happy and felt bless somehow.

2.) For my sisters, I am indeed so grateful. I used to be displease with my sisters. I always feel that they always try to critisize me in so many way and love to tell me what to do. I need to and need not to do this and that. Sometimes they annoyed me alot. Little did I know, they did all of that for my own sake. They are my guidance in so many aspects of life now. I love my sisters to death, they always try to set a good example for me and for that I am so grateful. For whatever problems that I faced in my daily life, its my sisters that I consult first.

3.) For my friends that always love me just the way I am. The sweet and sometimes not-too-sweet me. The good and sometimes not-too-good me. The food lover and the loud me. For being able to endure me, I am too grateful for that. I am trying my best to be a better person, and somehow with them being around me I think I will be able to.

4.) For my job that pay the bills and support my shopoholic nature. I am grateful. For the very same job that let me do what I like the most and do the best. I am grateful. For being able to do what I like as a career that is truly a pleasure indeed.

5.) For my students that without me realizing teach me a lot about life and the importances of developing one's self. I am really grateful. For being able to share what I know and help them even in a smallest way that I could. I am most grateful.

There are many things that I am grateful for.., to write it here, it seems impossible., countless and countless of them. Syukur Alhamdullillah Ya ALLAH. For everything even the smallest little thing that I might not even realize.

Also I am grateful for my pumpkin, she is really clever, it is really amazing on how fast she learn new things. She will be 4 years old this coming April 26th. She has started to go to kindergarthen
and she just loves to go to school. Kakak, maksu is so proud of you- my little sweetheart. You are so great in so many way. Hail! Princess ilmy :)




For my dearest Izzah, I am way too grateful. She is just so enchanting and every little thing she does make me smile ear to ear. She is pure sweety pie. Everything about her is witty and cute in a very special way. She loves micky mouse so much, she calls him 'Mima'. Gosh, Izzah is just so adorable. I love her so much.



Izzah caught in action try to copy her ibu and breast feed her baby doll that she name 'Lina'. Hehehe. Way to cute.


For the new addition to our family - Amny Nur Aafiyah, I am surely grateful. Baby Aafiyah smells really good all the time from morning until night and even to the next morning. Her pluffy cheeks make me want to squeeze them everytime I see her. Aafiyah, be a good baby sister to your two big sisters and be a good daughter to your ibu and ayah k. Lovely baby, maksu will always love you unconditionally. :)

Aafiyah yang sedang khayal, waiting to fall deep into the her Lala Land~~ :)

For my two nephews, my heroes - along afiq and abang adik. Maksu is really grateful for both of you, eventhough you are now in the - so naughty phase. Ahh, always sweet as sweet as a candy cane when both of you want someting from me. But most of the time, drive me crazy with they idea and this and that. Still, maksu loves both of you lots and lots and lots. :)

--> I just realize, I have another entri with the same title. :)

in the journey of the moment

He says: Bon voyage~~
She says: Merci beaucoup~~

bliss, bless & happiness

I'll be going home tomorrow, to home sweet home. So, I am feeling grateful since this is out of my plan. It is just come along the way somehow. My sisters are super sweet with treating me with the unplanned plane ticket. I am smiling ear to ear while packing for my stuff just now. Ohh, home is where loves are always shining as bright as the moon in the clear sky. Home is where it is warm and comfy. Where the foods are always mavellous. Where my pumpkins and sweety pies are. Where my heart will always belong to. Being away from home is challenging, good and full with the smells of life. But being home, being home is without a doubt an exact good mixture of bliss, bless and happiness~~

" THERE ARE OTHER THINGS WE HAVE TO FIND,
before we find each other"

Sudddenly, everything make sense because, paradoxically, I finally accepted that it never would make sense. That's life. It's not all wrapped up with a tidy bow - its crazy and disorganized and unpredictable, and so are the people who live it.

Diane Schwemm, The Year I Turned Sixteen

I've got a good solid lesson today. I somehow know that it is my fault entirely.
Nonetheless, for all of it I am thankful.
Dear self, no more of that mischivious attitude, or you know that you'll be in trouble again.

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them relly about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on the way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost (1916)

hufff

Im so annoyed and irritated with impolite and improper students.
Im not gonna care anymore. Do as you like.